Memento Mori

Hehehehe.. what a long time.. It's been 8 months since last time I logged into this blog, my life in blog. :)

How come??
Where have I been?
What was I doing??
:-D LOL

Reading back to all my entries.. it's totally very different thing to see now.. such memories..
What thing have I accomplished since last time I wrote? Any progress?

Lets see Linda, what things you've been going through these 8 months.. you must remember it back :)

So.. these 8 months..
Well.. I think first progress I can identify is my English has been enhanced.. time by time, my English enhances, especially speaking.. I feel I speak more fluently than before.. I met many interesting foreign friends who spoke English to me in some special activities.. they are very kind to me.. my courage grew a lot.. my circle of friends have been varied and getting bigger..

But mostly for circle of friends, I am really grateful to have meet with kak Ina, kak Mega, kak Eunice.. they are my 30-something years old sisterhood friends :) (I dont have many friends with same age).. and then my best friend Devi and O.I.. they are very good & low-profile people, they teach me how to be good person and be better.. They make me happy. I am such lucky person.

Second, definitely I became philosopher in these 8 months lol.. of course behind my non-sense smile, I am also thoughtful person :P

So now is my last year.. what will I gonna do? Which starting point do I need to take?
I have a plan.. one plan.. living abroad after I graduate next year (working there, setting new level of maturity & courage, doing new adventure etc etc).. that is the only plan I want to do.. I dont know why.

Third, I want to feel in love.. again.. so lately I joined one dating site out there, never been or done that before, such spontaneity and tremendous courage of me lol.. I dont know what I must do actually in this site.. what thing should we expect from dating site? Am I type of a person who is able to do kind of that relationship?

But from learning from my past, I need to pray for every relationship.. that's important to pray because that is such big matter.. I dont want to play someone's feeling as well as I dont want to be played.. there is karma/consequence when we do something bad.. And I think, we must take maturity right now.. have strong commitment to our relationship, something that many people greatly lose & give up easily in this era.

Lately I'm also  *really* thinking about what the best criterias I need to see in man.. but I dont want to spread my mind here ;p

I believe GOD will direct and lead me to best direction.. whatever will happen, I know I will smile.. and I hope every guy I met will smile too.. I do adore God's spontaneity.. when we think about doing something or planning something, God suddenly change it 180' and give us something that makes us giggle at the end.. I did experienced some of them.. I giggled why I entered law school, something I never imagined before.. I giggled why I can be blessed with best life right now meanwhile JUST 3 years ago I died in spiritual .. God is soo good because His Love.. spontaneity in His plan.. so, eventhough I plan I would go to America someday, I'm relax for that.. this life, we must be relax and trust GOD to do His magic, His "joke".. all the things. Trust me, God is funny :) .. maybe I am very happy person right now because I know I have very funny God with funny plan :))

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I think that's all.. some big points in these 8 months..

This writing is too simple and straight-forward.. but that's what I want to do in my life..To simplify my life now..  So others doesnt need to confuse about my life.. For me, saying things to be straight & honest is the best thing to do.

I just can do that..
I dont want to complicate things anymore and try hard way.
It is just not worth the price. :)

Love can change so many things

From any bad form to good one.. it is the beauty of Love.

Looking at these photos overwhelmed me with warmth & gratitude..
Yes, I really believe love can change so many things.. included person..
My Mom & Dad is my hero.. They changed me three years ago. :)

There is no best present from my parents other than my parents' love when I was in my lowest level 3 years ago.. I used to be like the "bad dog", they took care of me when I couldnt takecare of my ownself..

When you feel you are really loved, you will go stand up by your ownself, you will become aware & responsible about your life, you will move forward, and you will finally understand how important Love is in human's life.

The beauty of Love: It changes things, conditions, animals, person..

I Need You To Understand This

Someday it will be spring summer

What you see is overly drama
Unhappy people
Unhappy life
Shitty, so miserable
People will get what they deserve
People will attract something of what their real self are
People will be something they choose to be

We are nothing, but a hope.

That hope we don’t even know
where it is in our self
that will get us there
to spring summer
in our heart.

Kata Pak BJ Habibie

"Dik, saya ini memulai segala sesuatunya dari bawah, sampai saya ditunjuk menjadi wakil dirut perusahaan terkemuka di Jerman dan akhirnya menjadi Presiden RI, itu semua bukan kejadian tiba-tiba. Selama 48 tahun saya tidak pernah dipisahkan dengan Ainun, ibu Ainun istri saya. Ia ikuti kemana saja saya pergi dengan penuh kasih sayang dan rasa sabar. Dik, kalian barangkali sudah biasa hidup terpisah dengan istri, you pergi dinas dan istri di rumah, tapi tidak dengan saya." — B.J. Habibie

Translation:
"Kids, I was starting everything from rock bottom until I was appointed a vice president of a leading company in Germany, and eventually became President of Republic Indonesia, this is not the event of a sudden. During these 48 years I have never been separated by Ainun my wife and mother of my children. She followed me to anywhere I go with full dedication and patience to me. You may be probably familiar living apart with your wives, but not with me. "- B.J. Habibie

It is a story of BJ Habibie, ex President of Republic Indonesia, who just lost his dearest wife in Mei 2012. He was greatly grieved about it. Indonesian's love story.

"It Will Be Allright, For I Am With You.."

Read: Haggai 2:1-9 
The people of Israel had returned from exile just a few years before. They came back to a place that was home and yet not home. They had to live alongside with the unfamiliar ‘remnant’ in the land. They had to rebuild homes and businesses. They suffered through drought. Most of all, they had to rebuild the Temple and reconcile the faith they kept in exile with the faith they now needed to sustain them in the future. Their lives were unsettled and uncertain, full of unease and anxiety.

In the midst of their struggle, the Lord encourages the people to be strong, to be courageous, to keep on, to move forward, to not let the past become the definition of the future. “It will be alright,” says the Lord, “for I am with you.”

Today, we, too, live in uncertainty and unease. Some of us wonder whether we can make it through tough economic times, or whether we will have a job tomorrow or next year. We fear the terrorist from another shore and the thief down the street. Even our familiar ways of faith are unsettled. Yet in this season, God reminds us in a most amazing way, with the birth of a child, that God is still with us and will bring us Shalom, wholeness, peace, and rest.

- IES Church Devotional Digest, 10-Dec-2011

The Art of Losing Something

Hmmm ga tahu kenapa tiba-tiba ingin menulis seni dari kehilangan sesuatu.

Tiba2 ingin saja, mungkin saja.

Saya pernah merasakan kehilangan. Bukan kehilangan sesuatu yang saya perlukan atau tidak melalukan sesuatu yang bisa ‘membunuh’ saya, tapi bener-bener kehilangan sesuatu yang saya sayangi.

Percayalah, salah satu pelajaran yang paling SANGAT menempah saya hingga menjadi sekarang ini adalah losing something, not all things I have last forever.

Salah satu yang paling saya takutkan adalah kehilangan anggota keluarga saya. Terakhir, saya kehilangan nenek saya. Saya teringat bahwa bulan ini sudah bulan November, sudah mau akhir tahun, sudah mau Natal dan kumpul keluarga besar.

Saya menyadari bahwa saya tidak akan pernah ketemu lagi dengan nenek saya. Untuk sekarang, saya belum bisa membayangkan bagaimana rasanya ibadah tutup tahun tanpa nenek saya biasanya memberikan petuah. Saya sudah terlampau biasa dengan itu. Saya sudah terlampau sayang dengan nenek saya.

Hhh, I miss your voice so much, Grandma. T_T

Apalagi katamu terakhir kita bertemu, aku harus benar-benar serius belajar, menyelesaikan sekolahku yang kali ini, agar nenek bisa datang ke Jakarta dan melihat aku wisuda. Kamu juga bilang, akan mengusahakan kesehatan juga agar bisa melihat wisuda itu hingga waktunya. Tapi tidak, nenek ga bisa menepati janji kepadaku. Tuhan sudah duluan mengambil janji nenek. Namanya janji adalah janji, bisa tertepati, bisa tidak kan?

Tapi,

Apapun hal saya kehilangan itu,

Saya pernah kehilangan anggota keluarga saya

Saya pernah kehilangan cinta saya yang pertama

Saya pernah kehilangan kesempatan

Membuat saya jadi berpikir ..

Hidup pada waktunya ada akhirnya. Ada awal, ada ujung.

Rasa kehilangan akan berakhir.
Rasa kehilangan akan terlupakan ketika saya meninggal.

Di alam lain sana, saya tidak akan mengingat apa2 lagi yang saya punya di dunia, orang-orang yg sudah saya kenal dan sesuatu yg sudah saya jalani di dunia.
Aku tidak akan mengingat lagi nenek, orangtua saya, sahabat2 saya, orang2 yg pernah menyakiti saya, dan kamu yang membaca ini.

Saya selalu mengingat fakta itu setiap melihat segala sesuatu di dunia.

Bahwa hidup saya hanya persinggahan. Hanya sebentar mengenal seseorang, kemudian saya/dia pergi.

Hanya mencengkram persepsi sesuatu itu di pikiran sebentar, kemudian saya tidak akan mengingatnya lagi.

Bahwa inti hidup adalah justru kehilangan.

Mati.

Tetapi nya,

Sesuatu harus mati, agar tunas baru bisa tumbuh

Seseorang harus kehilangan sesuatu, supaya orang itu bisa “hidup”.

Seseorang harus kehilangan sesuatu , supaya paham menghargai sesuatu itu dari awal sebelum kehilangan.

Saya tahu, saya akan kehilangan segala sesuatu suatu hari nanti & tidak bisa menemukannya lagi.

Karena itu, saya harus bnr2 memperlakukan sesuatu dengan baik, dari awal.

Saya tahu, suatu hari nanti saya tidak akan merasakan lagi rasanya kehilangan.

Karena itu, saya tidak akan berhenti cuma karena kehilangan.

Saya tetap akan meneruskan kuliah, walaupun nenek saya tidak bisa melihat saya wisuda lagi.

The art of losing something.

... I guess my breast has been growing up, bigger :') he he he

Science is FUN! :D

It is called Poggendorf Illusion.

For other illusions, you can learn by yourself here :D :
http://www.michaelbach.de/ot/ang_poggendorff/index.html

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Rememberance Effect

"Everything lives as long as we remember it.
But once we forget it, it will rest in peace." 
- Linda, August 22th 2011-